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to, the person whom used to be my friend,the person whom i used to trust.
i dont wanna mention her name,its HER ar,so dont stupidly come and ask me its a boy or girl hur.
now ive this
well, the thing is, we hardly have time to entertain each other, so the only time when we free is during school break,so..ya, obviously i dont treat her as in those BGR(boy-girl relationship) thingy,i treaet her as a friend, a good one.
so.. its only normal for people to miss their good friend right? espiecally if she went to malaysia to study and the time that we can spent together playing is very limited. and so, during every term break, we would like arrange to go out.
which obviously,never happened at all.
just imagine, if u have a friend,that always give u empty promises, how would you feel?
1 time? ok,forgive
2 times? ok,forgive
3times? ok..try hard to forgive
4times? ok..i'll try very,VERY hard to forgive
5times? god damn wtf wads wrong? nvm i shall give her 1 last chance
6times? fk off
the thing is that, whenever she came back,she would tell me,and the chances of we actually going out,is lower than ur parents,or u yourself,strike lottery.
the problem is,if shes busy, as in busy with a really good reason, like got work,or etc.whatever, im fine with it, i can understand.
but what pisses me off is that, whenever i tell her on that bla bla bla day if shes free wanna go out?she will say ya,free. and days later i will ask her,if she wanna go out on that day, and she would say shes not free,shes booked.
that's wtf
i mean is like, if people so call ask u out already,and u accept,and tts it. you will then go out with that person whom you promised with. the worse it can be is you forgot about my promise, and you actually arrange to go out with another friend, and then YOU come and tell me AUTOMATICALLY.
AND NOT FUCKING WHEN I ASKED YOU THEN YOU TELL ME YOU'RE NOT FREE,GOT IT?
you think its the worst? theres more to come.
you just imagine, if u have a friend, that keep pester you for a present, and you finally promised to give her a present, and the day before you both meet is like 5 days or so? and that bag cost around $50-80. you dont have that money, so..begin a good friend,you didnt eat during break,you didnt eat outside,you only eat when you back home so as to save money.
guess what? days later, when you finally saved that amount,and you finally bought the bag, she tell you she isnt free!
WHAT THE FUCK
and again, its AFTER you ASK her when she's free then she tell you that. she NEVER tell you beforehand. its damn wasting my fucking time and money for that damn bloody bag,which ive bought.
and of cause this is what happened to me.
so finally, i got damn pissed off that i ignored her,and she started apologising, having a soft-heart,i accepted her apology,and she again,PROMISED,promising that "i will go out with you when im back.and u will be the first to know when im back."
which is this time,and is like,the next month or so,she will be leaving to india,by then it will be harder to find a time which we both free. so obviously, if she treat me as a good friend, she would keep her promise,right?
guess what,1 day,i saw this message,from her.
her:im bored, call me at this number **********
so i called her
me:when you back 1 ar?
her:o..1 week ago.
wtf,you said that i will be the first to know when u r back. nvm,this is nothing big.
me: when you going back?
her: next week
ok lo,still got time to go out with her la,1 last time to go out with her already.
on monday,
me: hey you free on tues or wednesday?
her: tues go library with friend, wed go repair laptop
me thinking: wtf where's our promise? nvm still got few more days
on tues,i asked her
me:you free on fri?
her:im going back on fri
me: ...
me: great
me: i think i shall not call you as a good friend anymore,we shall just think each other as internet friend.
*offline*
mins later,phone rang,she called,i hang it.
came into msn again
her: oi why u like that
*offline again*
me thinking:
you still have the nerves to ask me why u like that? why dont you ask urself why are u like that?
WHY YOU JUST FUCKING DUNNO WHAT'S THE IMPORTANCE OF PROMISE, AND YOU JUST FUCKING DUNNO THAT YOU HURT ME DAMN LOT WITH ALL YOUR EMPTY PROMISES, AND YOU DUNNO,THE DAMN THING IS,U DUNNO ITS IMPORTANT, U DUNNO IT HURTS ME,U DUNNO.
and you still have the guts to call me your good friend?
whats wrong with me calling you an internet friend? am i wrong? no,i dont think so.
i wont say sorry, and please dont be sorry as well, for you can find no friend that can tolerate such things for 6 times, even if its "good" friend that you are calling.
last but not least, for ur damn information, good friend is someone you kept promise with,someone you wont hurt,someone that you will understand.
and you DIDNT, i doubt that even if i forgive you, you would change
its in you already, it cant be changed already, for if you really will change, you would have changed years ago. and you didnt
bye,and fuck off
i wont be sad
i wont be crying
i will just be glad
that im free from the pain you gave
fuck off
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