i dunno how to start this post,im sad,heartbroken,i may use up all the words that i can find in the dictionary but i doubt it will be as nearly as what i felt,and am feeling.

while i was walking the lonely path back to MRT,i nearly cried,infact,i did shed some tears,i tried to hold it,but it was off no use.

sometimes,i really ask myself,what am i to u guys? like,seriously

isit wrong for me to voice out myself?

isit wrong for me to make my mind clear?

i really dunno.

ok i do admit that i get over the top at times, but well..i dunno,i really dunno

isit just me who have this idea of keeping the promise? ok promise is a strong word, it wasnt that serious but,i cant find the right word for that,and im not bother to find it either.

people always say that,

its good to let urself known,to be direct.

but see where i got myself in.

iszi really good?

i dunno

maybe i should be a robot or something? someone, no, something that hides its discontentment and squeeze out a smile as if nothing has gone wrong? no,i cant bring myself to do that,then again maybe thats the reason why i sucked.

and really..it pains me when im leaving, no 1 make an attend to stop me.

not my friend of 8 years, whom i thought was my best ever friend.
not my friend,whom i protected so much when he drops to normal.

no,none did it.

and when i was walking the dark,lonely path back to the MRT,i was hoping maybe someone would just ask me,whats wrong.

then again, thats what hope made of.

it pains me to think that if it was anyone but me, someone would have stopped it.
it pains me to think that after all i had done for them, this is all that happened to me.
it pains me to learn of this fact, in a hard,and cruel manner,that this is how they treats me,how they thought of me,that im not even worth a sentence "stop".

but boy,i know it now.

for me,friendship is well..helping around. or like what some people would like to address it, give,and take.

maybe i have been giving too much, and im taking too little

no,im not complaining,but well...

come to think of it,whenever someone needs me,i will always be there
and when i needed someone? i dun wan to talk about this

people have been telling me what, "im always there"

but well... i dun wan to comment on this.

its all over now, dont worry, i wont find you guys anymore, im not letting you guys to find me either,i doubt that you guys would bother anyway.

and no,i dun wan people to take pity on me, dont offer me a hand just because you thought i need it, im not that pathetic.

and,this will be my last post. so ya,

farewell guys.

ps:shaoting if u are reading this, its not referring to you,budden...i just wanna say sorry to you,i dont seek a forgivement or something,but ya..sorry.

farewell =)

ok i juz went this web and it states that my personal day of death is...

Tuesday, June 22, 2088 Seconds left to live...
2,502,968,092

lol

http://www.deathclock.com/

beaten up

FINALLY EXAM'S OVER!!!

:D

had my last paper today,CSF,it wasnt so bad,budden wasnt very good either,duno wad im toking about.lol

Now i've got to wait for my exam results.

and i didnt know i need 30 CCA points to be qualified for medals,damn.

AND,lemme make myself clear.

to whoever reading this,and this includes the concerning party(dun wanna mention names).

i really,really hate people to keep using the same thing to threaten me,espiecally IF its u who started to irritate me FIRST.

go spread to others that i suck la,wadeva,dammit.

ended up with a bad note,hope tomorrow will be better anyway.

bye

when life gives u lemon, make it into a lemonade.

but what if life gives u lemonS?

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things arent easy for me this few days. lets see wad i had suffered

i injured my armpit (lets not talk about this -.-)
i injured my left LEG(yea,the whole of it)
and my laptop spoiled.

well it all started on a fine friday, i woke up,happily switch on my laptop,and it gives 1 long and 2 short beeps.

GG,thats what i thought

indeed it is,after trying like numerous times,hoping that it will miraclely self-healed.apparently, and rather obviously, my prayers werent answered

while still cursing the laptop but given up on figuring out what happened, i know this laptop got to be screwed (literally!)

had enough bad luck?

no,more to come -.-

ok then i was lying on my bed,reading through my newspaper,and right after i stand up,i injuried my left knee (gees i dunno how i did that!).

so,losing mobility on both occasion (physically and, internet access). feels like shit.

my life was always revolved around,sports,and yea,internet.

and this 2 had deserted me in an instant.

thankfully, it wasnt for long, im back with both now.

so this is how i went MIA (incase any1 was wondering!).

btw, watched "curious case of benjamin button" on valentine's day, with 2 GUYS (sherman and ken) psss,its not what u think!

those who havent watch it better do,cuz its a really very meaningful show.

no matter how u start your life, you end up the same.

thats the message i got from it.

so guys/girls,what u waiting for??

go watch lar!

points-to-note: dont watch the show if u only got front row to choose, im SERIOUS!

ok thats it man,time to study for exam.good nights!

是有一点点失望啦.

不过...

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我也不懂应该讲什么呢,总之,快乐就好啦!

对了,明天就是众所期待的in4最终考试! (期待,应该算是撒谎吧=x)

更重要的是,祝大家每个人都过的了关!

加油!

the opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
the opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
the opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

Elie Wiesel

ok i really like this quote,just wanna share it =)

so long since i last blogged =\ ok im lazy but ya, thats me anyway,lol!

so many things happened, and so many things left undone.

dunno if im gonna get my wish granted,haiz

on a better note

IPD finally end! and please la i really hate hypocrite man, stupid fat ass.

On top of that, i got into a-star!

gosh im so looking forward for it, if what the interviewers said is anything to go by, im gonna learn c programming and soc programming in the space of 1 month!

guess theres no time for me to rest isnt it =\

well, if my poly life is to be compared to a long race, then i think im at the ending part of it, you know, those part where the racer increase their pace and no signs of stopping until he reach the end.

ya im feeling just that.

26th feb's gonna be my last paper.

then if everything goes smoothly, i will have class chalet from 1st to 3rd of march.

then maybe going malaysia after that till 8th march.

then my attachment starts on the very next day, 9th!

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i think i need more rest than that, its like, i want some time of my own, then again, i dont want to miss the chance to be with my friends, if only my holiday is 1 week longer,argh!

nvm things will work out fine(i guess!)

3 tests left, IN4, CSF, FNS.

3 tests to decide my grades.

but for now, i just wanna rest

oh and damnit theres this director session next friday, still must wear appropriate.

photography has come to an end, having mixed feeling on this, the good is that i dont have to rush for shots every weekend, the bad is that, i really like photography (despite the fact that i cant be bothered to upload the shots i took).

ok la,got to go already, its 3:14am already, i have been staring at the screen with no idea what to do,see how much time i had wasted!

and guys,do pray on me that i will succeed okay? on....*er hem*

thats IF i got the guts to do it or not=(

good nights!