Thursday, March 1, 2012

Me, Myself, and I

Ok, I think it's kind of lame for me to say that there's no need for me to explain myself in the previous post and here I am creating one to clear up some general doubts about me, but since I am kind of free and bored right now so why not?

So I'm gonna name some of those things that people label me as, and I'm gonna explain it. Here goes;

1) HE IS A SORE LOSER

I have come to notice that this is the most common (negative) thing that people would label me as, this is especially obvious when I'm in a team sports. Well, really, it all depends on what's your definition of a loser. For me, winning is not everything, but it IS something, I hate to lose, but when I've lost I will accept my loss.

I admit here I could be a bit fierce when I'm in a game, but it's all within the game, and out of it I'm fine, even if I had a run-in with you during the game, I'm absolutely fine afterwards, cause what happened in the game, stays in the game. I play to win, and hence I'm serious.

To add on to the line "I could be a bit fierce", I have to argue that its not all the time, for me to be fierce towards you, you must have done something to trigger me. And more often than not it is cause of your insincerity/lack of commitment (will be explained in point 2 later on) that would lead me to that .

An extra thing to mention is that, I hate people that say "it's just a game" and acted like they couldn't care less after they have lost (and tried so hard during the game), cause to me it's bullshit. No person in the right mind would go into a game without the mentality of winning, part of what makes sports interesting is the desire to win from both parties.

I do understand thou, when people come and tell me that "it's just a game so relax", my answer to that would be, "yea I know it's a game, but at the very least try to play and not give in sloppy performances and that half fucked attitude, cause you will truly enjoy the game when you put your heart into it, and the attitude will just naturally come along"

All in all, I personally think that I accept defeat well, I hate to lose, but that doesn't make me a loser in my eyes. However, if by hating to lose would make you classify me as a loser, I can't be bothered much about it either. Afterall, you don't really lose when you lose a game (contradicting I know), but you will be the REAL loser if you enter into a game and don't give a shit about it.

2) HE DOES NOT ACCEPT ERROR

Well, this one is very much related to (1), again, it's all about your heart. To me, sincerity plays a huge part in determining whether one is worth forgiving or not, you will come to realize that.

Take for instance, I hate latecomers (as in really hate that kind), but I will be able to understand if you notify me around 20-30mins earlier that you will be late. I am unable to tolerate those people that does not make an effort to notify me and let me waited there like an idiot. There is a difference.

However, if you are always late, notify me or not, it will still get on my nerves, and I think this is pretty much reasonable.

3) HE IS ARROGANT

I admit to this wholeheartedly actually, but still I have to explain. Like some people observed, I tend to believe that my idea/theory is the right one, and that when people say that I'm wrong I will stood up to my theory firmly.

I agree to this, what people do not know is that. I do admit my mistake, the tough part to this is that, you will have to explain to me where did I go wrong. I mean, it is tough to accept you are wrong when people come up to your face and say "you're wrong" and that's that! I think I do not have to explain too much on this point do I?

4) HE IS UNFORGIVING

I beg to differ on this, I think the right statement to describe me is that "I forgive easily but I do not forget". Everytime I enter into an argument, 99.9% of the time, I would forgive the person after a short while (and when I said short while I meant REALLY short while). However, I do not forget, it is something that I am programmed with, in fact, that's what everyone is programmed with.

5) HE IS TOO DIRECT AND HATES PEOPLE THAT BEAT AROUND THE BUSH

Well... no argument on this, I admit I am a very direct person, sometimes too direct for others' good, so if I somehow hurt you before, I apologise and I did not mean to hurt you.

Obviously being a direct person would make me hate an indirect person, now I have to say that being indirect is different from being shy or introvert, I am not into explaining the differences as it would take quite an effort to do that.

However, despite that, I do admit that there are things that you do not feel comfortable in telling me, and hence I am fine if you choose not to say, and it would be even better if you could tell me you are feeling uncomfortable in telling me things (most of the time you don't have to, I'm not that dumb). But what irks me are those people that play the "play hard to catch game", meaning people that wanted to say something but decided last minute against telling me, usually ending with a "it's nothing".

5) HE IS HEARTLESS

I will have to disagree on that point, before I decided to drop something/someone, it always pains me greatly. However, once I've decided to let go, I will not ever look back, hence why I am heartless. 拿得起,难放下。放下了,就不再去管了

Sometimes I may intentionally go all out to hurt someone, but that is after that particular someone had done similar to hurt me and if words can't get through to them how much it hurts, then only actions will.

Let's just say that I'm a typical cancerian that likes that hide in its cover, but a special one that knows how to use it's pincer to great use.

I guess that's all for now, I will update more in the future, should I come against more claims towards me.

See you!