I feel that, this world is too full of prejudices and assumptions.

I want to learn yoga. Anyone wants to learn together?

Rehab

I admit I'm a person that can really procrastinate on things even if I know it will benefit me greatly, but the short term benefit (laziness) more often than not overwhelms the long term benefit for me.

This time, it's different thou, the doc had given me a list of exercises that I should complete every day and night so that my ankle could recover.

To say the truth, I'm really not too sure if it would help but I guess no harm trying, and I ought to.

I don't know if it's just me or what but I find that people that keep posting on facebook like how they are prepared for NS, or constantly counting down for NS on facebook as serious losers who are attracting attention.

I need honesty, I need directness.

Random. About. Me

I'm a guy.

I'm 21.

I do sports.

I love sports.

I love frisbee, soccer, basketball, floorball, handball.

I like to run.

I hate being restricted.

I'm having this ankle sprain.

I hate ankle sprain.

I missed school.

But I love NS.

^ Most of the time.

I like watermelon,

and apple,

and honeydew,

I like apple + orange + ginger juice

If not, watermelon is fine for me.

I love icecream,

chocolatechip's the best

I'm in love with gundam models,

I have 2,

My sis took one thou, and it has been under construction ever since.

I like to read, all sorts of books, depends on my mood.

I could read fast, I could read slow.

Fastest book that I finished was harry potter, just a few hours.

Longest? Lord of the ring, 1 year for the whole series.

I find human brain fascinating.

I like romance movie as much as I like horror

I think action movies nowadays are a late down

I talk to myself at times when I'm alone

and no I don't have split personalities.

I like to listen to music, retro pop, and pop.

I soul search once in a while.

Sometimes I just like to stay so quiet that I want to be non existence

Sometimes I want to be known.

I am random,

as shown on this post.

I have dark secrets about me,

that I will probably keep with me into my grave.

I dream

I hope.

But I'm paranoid.

I'm an optimist most of the time,

but when I'm down, its real bad.

I hate failures,

But I hate it even more if I never put up a good fight.

I consider myself a sore loser when it comes to a match.

I'm fine with that thou.

I like cute stuffs,

I like cool stuffs.

I hate it when people don't reply to my SMS.

Especially so if the SMS contains important messages.

I don't like to be asked a lot of questions when I just woke up.

I love the wild.

I have this ambition to complete a Chinese novel one day,

speaking of which, I think it's a disgrace that people forget their root language.

I also want to travel the world one day.

I wish to stay healthy.

I like IT.

But I dont think I'm qualified to be an IT geek.

Sometimes I think the whole world is stupid.

Sometimes I find I'm the dumbest person on Earth.

I have quite a lot of regrets,

but I think I have learnt to live with it

I'm not a mind reader,

I suck at guessing thoughts or hints

That's about me

Suddenly remember this song while I was reading "Eat Pray Love", there's actually no much link between this song and that story, but well, still worth listening to thou.

心情不好，but its okay,明天会更好吧？

Here I thought the Phuket saga was over but na its not, so during the Phuket stay there was some serious cock up with the hotel and we have to call Singapore to get our side people to help.

All the conversations were done through my phone and at the end of the day, the phone bill for overseas call alone was $138, and when i asked if they could pay me back some they made me sound like i'm begging for the money.

seriously, wtf.

today review was... bad, not bad in the sense that my ankle was, but the whole thing sucked.

MMI thought that NUH could access my MRI scan results, turned out they couldn't =\

on the brighter note, KL was fun, and I cant wait to be back to NS, with no hint of sarcasm (ok, maybe just a bit!)

Alright its the big day today, fingers crossed for myself!

I need something to look forward to

I don't know if its just me but i find that people that want to convey an important message through facebook post (note underlined) instead of texting as hardly retarded and inefficient.

Phuket

I think its not wrong to say that I have really learnt a lot from this trip, and grow a lot, it's funny how much 5D4N can do to you but trust me, it can really change you. This is more of a self-assessment thing so yea, bear with me if you bother to read, I won't promise it's gonna be an enjoyable read but I can assure you that this, is really written from the bottom of my heart.

This post will be divided in 4 parts, the first being this, followed by The Good, The Bad, and Truth Session

So.. Firstly, lets talk about...

(The Good)

Well, Phuket is pretty much well known for its water activities, and its attractive beaches, night life, and wild life. Sad to say, (due to budget constraint), I did not get to do a single water activity, unless you consider swimming as one, but I did go to the beach and I really really liked the place, it kind of reminds me of pulau ubin but of cause, a high technology one.

I did live shooting, thou my shooting skill kind of suck, 3 hits out of 10 =\ at least it kind of prove that I'm not cut out to kill. And then obviously there's the go kart.

Anddddddd, most importantly, I did bungee jump! like seriously can you believe it? It may be lame to say but its one of the goals in my life, I longed to do a jump ever since I'm like.. 12? and the feeling was great, thou my balls literally shrink when the elevator was going to the highest point, but the whole experience was great =)

I did elephant trekking too, you know how TV always show an elephant ride to be slow and steady, well let me tell you, its not, the seats are jerky, and when the elephant is going downslope, you feel like you are being thrown off the back! and despite popular belief, seating of its neck is much, much more comfortable.

White water rafting was crazy, its all bumpy and wet, I thought I was gonna cap sized anytime, but I guess the crazier it is, the more fun it is =D

So of cause there's the night life, I'm not really a night life kind of person so... I didn't go to the bar, thou I had a few drinks, but that's about it.

(The Bad)

Nothing is perfect, so there goes my trip, while I have nothing bad to say about Phuket (almost nothing, besides the f**ked up indian shop owner who scolds me). I do have bad occurrences at there, particularly with my friends, which sadly, is basically the main reason why I am making this post.

So basically I traveled with 3 of my good friends together, and yea, lets just name them A, B and C. So like what I wrote in "The Good", mention Phuket to people and everyone would think of all the fun, the activities that await.

I got to say that B & C really disappointed me greatly, first off, I did notify them that we will be playing water sports, go kart, and every other thing at there, and when we were there, B & C refuse to play because they think those things are expensive and thus back out, now that's turned off number 1.

Turned off number 2, instead of following us (me and A) to the go karts and places, they rather stay at the hotel and crack the same I-poke-your-ass-you-are-a-gay jokes or your-mother-is-blablabla insults or wa-that-chick-is-damn-hot-I-want-to-XXX comments, which to say the truth I'm getting sick with.

So on the next day after me and A were done with the activities, we decided to rest in the hotel for a day and when we proposed that to B & C, guess what's their respond? "don't want la stay in hotel like very waste time", turned off number 3.

Like hellllooo? what did you guys do yesterday? Didn't you guys 'waste time' too?

and that brings turned off number 4, they went shopping around the market, and when they were back they were like "hey check this out the uncle offered me this shirt for 800 baht but i managed to bargain till 400 baht, now that's what i called value for money", if it's just a one shot thing I'm totally fine with it, but this is what they did for the rest of the Phuket trip!

God dammit they travel there to only shop? Gosh I bet my female friends are better than that.

This leads to turned off number 5, for the rest of the day they keep trying to push the point that we "wasted money playing go kart and etc" and that "we bargained so much in the market", in conclusion, their idea was "you guys waste money while we saved, we seriously can't understand why you guys would spend so much money".

Turned off number 6, maybe it's just me, but I really don't get what's the point of saving money DURING an overseas trip and waste it away in Singapore, as the saying goes, save for the rainy days, you don't save during the rainy days do you? and now you guys ( B & C ) back out from the games just because you guys want to save money, sorry but I think it's seriously bullshit.

Turned off number 7, despite what I stated in (6), I actually do understand why people do save, but just like I am able to understand why you guys save, I really hope they could understand why we spent instead of just brushing us off as "wasting money", its not like we paid for the same thing as them but different price. and that between go kart and some fake jersey, you really can't find any connection between them can you?

Turned off number 8, probably the biggest turned off out of all, back to the point, I thought they were just desperate to save money, but in fact they were far more cheapskate than that, alright, so for the 3rd night, when they think they were really running out of money, they suggested to pay on our own meal, and on the 4th night, when they order so much more, they suggested to divide instead.

Turned off number 9, they went shopping (like again), and found a go kart that's 50 baht/min, which is cheaper than what we paid, they made so much effort to prove their point, if they did play then i got nothing to say, but the thing is they only went to check the price, which to me is really wtf.

Turned off number 10, and when I thought they were just being cheapskate, they are the truth ultimate showing of "money spoils friendship", okay so A and C actually paid a total of 7K deposit fee (A paid 3000 and C paid 4000), on the check out date itself, we realize that the hotel actually used some of the 7K cause of some charges, and that we didn't get back the expected return of 7K, and C, despite A having little cash, shouts "I want my fucking money back", which A has no choice but to comply, thus giving C all the money A has, C's reason for that? "I want to buy souvenir for my grandma", yea like A don't have to, and the fact that B & C have been practically shopping these few days make it more wtf than it already is.

(Truth Session)

This is kinda out of the blues but I do realize that there's a difference between... I should say old friends (sec sch and earlier) and new friends (poly and later) really treat me different.

Alright.. back when I was younger, my temper was really bad, I flared up on almost everything that irks me, I would burst and shout when something is going against my way.

But I have changed, over the years, I won't say I have the best anger management around but now I get angry when I really have to, and when I want to make a point I actually say it out.

My newer friends would be able to understand that, as in when I am angry or upset they will really consider what they did wrongly and when I made a point they will actually think about it.

This is totally different for my older friends, somehow I still feel that they have this prejudice that "whenever MD is upset, it must be his bad temper again" and whenever I raised my voice a bit to make a point, they will think "damn, look, this is MD for you"

Now this really saddens me quite a great deal because I really wish that my older friends could change the mindset, but the truth is even my best of friends from back then somehow still have this thought about me.

I don't know its a case of retribution but I think its really frustrating at times, I can't even show an inch of anger or discontentment infront of them for fear of being misunderstood.

Sometimes I really think that I am a bad person =\

I AM BACK, gosh there's so many things I wanna say, but I'm tired, and there's NS tomorrow (life's a bitch ya know). So yea, I should head for bed, so, see you!