Ok, so i decided to put up this PM on my msn "FOR ALL THOSE APPLYING FOR NUS, DONT FORGET TO SUBMIT UR FINAL SEM RESULTS TO THEIR ADMISSION OFFICE!" after 1 of my friends informed me (cuz i feel that not a lot know about it).

and not long later some retard actually come to ask me this...

Retard (not actual msn name) said:
when and how to sumbit the results?

O_O

when: of cause asap?
how: how did you submit your documents to the admission office back then, obviously use the same method?

GOSH

when common sense is not common =\

我妈每次都会说。。。

“早知道就不要买那个了”
“早知道就不要做这个了”

早知道，早知道

而我每次都会对她说。。。

“早知道今天4D会开什么就好咯！”

just my random post :p

近来有点心烦，很懊恼。

im very happy to break my home staying streak, like finally.

PS: 三年，是长是短？

I dont know if it is a case of drama finding me or me finding drama (like how i got eyes problem when i was young, like how i get PES E9L9, etc), but the truth is that i always got into weird problems in life.

And even after i breathed a sign of relief for completing my course, i still wasnt spared from the drama.

Everyone in my cohort has gotten their result slip through post and until today i still have yet to receive it (although it would be 3 days late).

drama drama stupid drama =\

PS: i know why ive gotten a PES E9L9, its because my eyes had a problem when i was younger, but well, its the past, im perfectly healthy now.

Ok make it 9 days since i figured out that i wont be going for soccer tml ~_~

i seriously need someone to give me a long, hard kick on my ass and urge me to go out and get some fresh air somewhere, anywhere.

im rooted to my home!

Just rewatched "the curious case of benjamin button" on HBO, its fantastic and one part of it particularly caught me;




It sounds crazily insane but thats the truth, one thing leads to another in life, and how one change could have prevented the accident in this case.

PS: i think i've broken my own personal record for the longest duration i've stayed at home! 8 days without going out, gosh!

While graduation is definitely a good thing to cheer about, i cant help but notice the highlighted portion in my online results slip;

"RESULT : Passed and completed the diploma course"

hey thats like trying to tell me, "oh yea you have completed your course now get your ass out of my school"

doesnt give the sense of satisfactory isnt it =S

they could have put something like;

"RESULT : Passed with completed the diploma with score of excellence, good luck in your future!"

ya like thats gonna happen -.-

it reminds me back then when i receives my "O" level cert, and imprinted on it was;

SINGAPORE-CAMBRIDGE GENERAL CERTIFICATE OF EDUCATION

(ORDINARY LEVEL)

whats worse is that they actually bracket up the words "ORDINARY LEVEL", its as if they are trying to say;

"hey dude you just received your certificate but you know what? its just ordinary, O-R-D-I-N-A-R-Y"

this kind of thing really turns me off, it makes me feel that graduation is nothing much, i mean yea over the years they have seen many graduated but for those who just graduated it means a great deal.

am i the only one feeling so? =\

shit shit shit shit shit X infinity

i feel that i am really turning into 宅男, this is what i have been doing for this few days

1)wake up at 11am
2)read a book/newspaper
3)eat lunch
4)on computer
5)off, read a book
6)nap
7)on com
8)eat dinner
9)sleep at around 1-2am
10)repeat from step 1

and you know whats worse?

I DONT FEEL BORED! IM OKAY WITH THIS LIFE

omg omg omg

i have been staying at home and i really love it, its not a bad thing really until you dont feel like going out, i even exercise at home!

i should get back my life before i become a full time 宅男

and i should do it SOON

my sentiments

Seeing friends around me planning to fly overseas for holiday really rub salt on my wound.

I was the one out of everyone around me that anticipates the coming holiday most. Because sometime ago a couple of my secondary school friends actually planned to fly overseas together for a holiday.

I was overjoyed, way beyond it. I thought that its gonna happen, i felt the promise is genuine, and i really, really looked forward for that day to come.

As holiday gets nearer and nearer, seeing how no one is taking initiative, i decided to get the ball rolling.

I sms/msn/call them. to remind them of it, i thought they have forgotten, but thank god they didnt, it gives me renewed hope. i asked one of them to help me to compare his schedule with another friend, and let me know when will they be free, because both of them are always so busy so i thought the rest of us should accommodate them.

I asked him to let me know by mid of feb, and he told me "ok", i thought, "yea at least i started something, plan's going smoothly".

Come mid of feb, the respond didnt come, so i decide once again to ask again, i was given an "ok" again, and again, i was never given a respond.

I dont like to press people too much because i feel that if i do, the person whom im pressing will be forced to do things against his/her will, i do occasionally remind them but sometimes once it has passed the treshold then you got to give up. because if i have to continue urging everyone to do things, i wont feel that they are genuinely willing to participate and to me, thats very important because ultimately i want everyone to be happy.

so i put faith in my friends, i do the best thing i can do, wait.

i was disheartened, yea. but i never give up, i clinged on to the tiny ray of hope, hoping that they may start something because afterall, if they had cared as much as i do, they will start something soon.

sadly, the day never arrive.

i have given up all hopes on this trip, and im feeling worse than just "heartbroken", im feeling disappointed, sad.

because i do not know why did it end up this way, sometimes i really feel its me, that im really not a good motivator or what. i really dont know, how everyone started so enthusiastic and end up only i alone trying to make things happen. the transition from hope/belief to despair is a feeling far beyond i can comprehend.

i really needed help, i cant do this alone, i hardly go overseas thus i know nuts about all the flights and accommodations, i really cant do that alone that is why i needed everyone to help.

but my friend, its really too late , as we know that one of us is gonna repeat 1 more sem in poly, if we want to go for holiday we got to go at the period of mid march to early april (and that is why i wanted to sort it out early), and looking at the calender now. its really too late to make it happen.

people tell me that they are busy, but surely if you guys want it to happen, you guys could have.. you know, do something, and seeing how you guys can make time for other group of friends really further the pain. i admit im being jealous on this.

its really sad, because one thing is that i really treasure the friendship and going overseas with you guys is really one of the thing im looking most forward to. on top of that we are all walking into the path of becoming adult, and we all know how its gonna be like, we wont have time for holiday next time, that is why it makes this more so important.

and that is why, it hurts so much more.

im not pointing the finger at anyone here, no one should be blamed in this, or perhaps everyone should bear some blame, i dont know, not that it is important now. i've talked to my good friends about this, and as yc pointed out theres really nothing you can do about this, its the truth and truth often hurts isnt it.

im just writing this to convey my feelings to you guys, and do really think hard before saying such things next time, because for all you know those talks may mean a lot to some other people.

i do not want any respond from this, i do not need them, this post is merely to voice myself out because it has been kept inside me for quite some time already and i really need to let it out.

sorry, and thanks

mingde

just imagine you are me, and you got to hear this damn fucking sound everyday for 10mins or even more! super annoying. and there are people that find it as a relaxing sound, wtf, go get a life, it sounds like the damn construction sites for god sake

returning back to the chalet is definitely the right choice, night cycling, that was unforgetable.

my only regret is only being able to eat more bbq food =\ my stomach was bloated!

PS:i've gotten a PES E9 L9, wtf, thats the worse PES status you can get, apart from PES F (which is for those people that's, well, beyond "bad shape"). gonna wait for CMPB to call me back in order to check out what happened, lets hope its just some minor stuffs.

Having your head banged against something and bleed is, unsprisingly, not that hurting. guess i should say im pretty lucky that i suffer a small cut. almost scared the shit out of me, i thought im gonna get a few stitches, thank god.