I am sad, disappointed, with a bit of anger , I didn't expect out of all the people I know, you would hurt me.

I cry for many nights.

For the first few nights, I cried cause I was sad.

For the next few nights, I cried cause I was disappointed.

I cried then, cause I was in despair.

And now? I still cry occasionally, I still feel the sadness and the disappointment and whatever you can think of, but it's more like I'm crying for the sake of crying.

I am hurt pretty badly when few days after we said that "we will continue to talk for everyday", all these happen just so suddenly.

I am shattered into pieces when that night, I begged for your answer, asking you to say something, you simply didn't care, you wasn't even moved, not even a word coming from you.

It makes me feels so insignificant, I don't know when have I become so insignificant to you, or was I ever significant to you? It doesn't even matter now, right?

All the good memories that I have with you, come back to haunt me everyday everynight everymoment of my life.

I can never expect that, for someone who was once hurt so badly like you, for someone who was taught the pain of being left alone like you, would come and hurt me.

I do not know what to say of this, but thanks to you (with no hint of sarcasm) , I think I somehow lost the sense of care in me, I am able to go out alone now, in fact, I rather be alone, I am able to take it when people ignore me, I do not rely on others that much anymore, cause I know there is no point in expecting things from people around me when they will disappoint me one day.

Don't get me wrong, I have not become a robot, I still enjoy when I am with people, I still laugh when people joke, I still cry when there's sadness, but it's just that I don't want to care anymore, or rather, I can't seem to care anymore even when I want to. Afterall, I don't see the need to do it.

Thanks.