went early to mandai there for sao mu 扫墓, which in english means to clean the tomb,direct translation lol

anyway every day of this year always makes me think a lot, whenever i see my eldest sister whom i had never seen before but is already up there in heaven.

i will always wonder if shes lonely, as in..we only went to see her once per year.

then again i will think of something else, like life after dead, if theres any, that is.

what will i be if i died?

scientifically saying, my brain will shut down, i cant think, my 5 senses will be gone, i will be in a form of "nothing".

oh maybe i will be in a form of spirit? going either heaven or hell?

then why are there so many wondering spirits out there on earth? are they too emotionally tied to the ground?

beats me, i will know it after i die anyway, but of cuz, i dun wan to know it so soon =p

see ya