11PM,while i was walking back home,i saw a guy fainted,grasping for air,supported by his parents.

initially i tell myself he will be fine,and i just walk past them,but something in me just tell me to stop,soon i go back to them,and ask if they need help.

their eyes are filled with worriedness,and one thing comes straight into my mind.

i need to fucking get an ambulance.

called the ambulance,looking at them,i feel helpless,i duno wad to do,just wait.

the guy then stopped grasping,i dont if he had calmed down or he went out of air,im totally blurred,i felt like crying.

and the ambulance came,i shout at them to catch their attention,to let them know that we are there,help them with the stretcher,the guy is given oxygen,and is sent to the hospital.

i just hope that he will be fine,i will pray for him,and i hope anyone that reads this,do that as well.

please god,help him.

Looking back on 2008



well,looking back at 2008,i would say there,theres more good than bad ya.

althou the bads are really bad,budden,if im asked if i regret the whole process,i would say no.

i dont really have a new year resolution eh.

some may say that i should find a gf,budden,i dont really care la,not that im gay but...its complicating,lol =)

now lets see what i have learnt this year,ok,i mean,last year.ha!
1)to use both heart and brain to decide on something,and dont let heart overwhelmes my thoughts.
2)this time for real,i have appericate,to treasure life.

3)i know how brittle how 1 life can be,no matter how superior/smart/strong you are.



ah ha! now i have got a resolution.



that is...



To spend quality time with my loved ones =)



ok la,so thats it.



hello 2009! thou its a belated greetings =\



budden,may we have a good year!

yo guys,had lots of fun counting down together =)

actually..i was preparing to type lots and lots of things about it,budden...i think that,memories,espiecally the good ones,are meant to be kept within.

so,ya =)

anyway just to brief it up,overall its fun,just that was spoiled for a while by some stupid people who attempt to "rob" our poker cards.

just hope that,i will be seeing more and more sunrises,and have many many more countdowns in the future,with,of course,my very very good friends.

yo guys,surprised to see me blog at sucha time? lol,well cant be helped,just got home after the heavy rain delayed me for like so long.

anyway..i just want to blog about this when the feeling is still fresh.

i have always thought that my mum is great,and today,after what happened,it can only prove me more right.

look,i went outta my house at around 11+,went to play bball wif jeff,and then had supper(which i didnt eat) with ken and gang at about 1+.

after the supper,we then decide to play bball again,and this time,2+,my phone rang.

my mum called me to ask where am i.

i was quite surprised that shes still awake,cuz usually she will be sleeping after 12,which is when her favourate show ends.

anyway,i tell her that im going to eat supper(this time for real!).and tell her to sleep early.

and later,we went to mac to take a break,by then it was already drizzling,but we ignored the sign despite obviously whats coming.

by the time we decide that its time to go home,its pouring.

got no choice but to stay on in mac longer.

the rain finally stops a bit by 3:30AM,and that's when i know that im so damn late for home,so i urge all the other guys to go home as well.

while we were walking back to my house(they want to borrow umbrella).

my mum rang me again.

she didnt sound angry,okay actually she does,but...it is overwhelmed by the worridness in her voice.

and once again,i tell her that im on my way home this time,and i ask her,why never go to sleep. her respond to my question...really touched me.

"u are my son,im worried for u"

i became speechless,its just...kind of strikes me,so i just tell her "aiya im reaching home already".

by the time i reached home,its 4AM already.

surprisingly,the main door isnt close,only the metal door is,and shes standing at there,waiting for my arrival,when i saw this scene,i really dunno wad to say.

i am touched,and at the same time,im feeling really guilty,i mean...she can sleep at 12am,and she waits for me all the way until 4am,juz to see that im safely home.

she didnt lecture me after that,she just says..

"sleep early"

my reply to her is the same,im so touched by her action that im losing my words.

mum,u are the best,really.

=)

yo,finally CT is over.

fns is alright i guess.
csf is just a bit better,i guess.

lol.

lemme see,i have watched;

bolt,
body of lies,
nick and norah infinite playlist.

all are nice shows,must watch ok? esp body of lies,very very nice show.

oh and i should really,really find something better to do before i start rotting at home

there are so many fucking busy bodies around now adays.

most notable,my sis.

ok this occurs just now,while me and jeff were outside eating supper,thats about 1am,she messages me this.

"u coming back liao or not? Poly student got so late come home one meh!"

thats exactly what she type,i mean like,c'mon la wads her fucking problem im just going outside to eat right? my mum never say anything why she see fking come and disturb me? wads her damn problem?

ok inregarding about your question "poly student got so late come home one meh!".

lemme tell u wad,the answer is no doubt,YES.

but of cuz im not trying to say things like "oh they do go home late so i should follow suit"

no,of cuz not,its not like im doing this everyday. i did this occasionally.

ok let me see what normal poly students have done,or at least,80+% of them. (any 1 thats stated)

clubbing
drinking
smoking
betting

me?

clubbing,nope
drinking,nope
smoking,nope
betting,nope!

ok of cuz these 4 stuffs are not within my interest, but c'mon im juz trying to state the fact that at least im among the 10+% of good "kids" remaining.

and staying overnight outside for poly students? thats so common for god sake.

and guess what,over my entire 18 years of life,i can tell u that,the amount of days i spent staying overnight outside,without including chalet,is less than the 10 fingers i have.

to be exact,i can only remember once when i stayed overnight,and that was for prawning.

now lemme ask u,how many poly students can boast about such things?

try grab anyone in poly that do what i did.

try it,fucking try it.

of cuz,im not saying that,i muz be just like the rest of the poly students,im not interested in such things,but of cuz there will be days when i just feel like,being wild,being....i dunno?

just,do something i want?

and going out for supper at midnight,this is the fucking respond that i got.

ok i really dont get it.

its not like im going out to drink,bet or have sex.

k its concern,i know,but please just trust ur child alright?

ah fuck it,like im ever going to get this type of freedom,even if juz occasionally.

fuck it

yo,holiday's around the corner,but that also means....common test is coming =\

and guess what,i still haven study ONE BIT,no joke,i swear,for those who thinks im those bookworm type,you are so wrong.

but of cause im not gonna screw up my poly results that way lar,im going to revise soon,when i got the mood to =) hehe.

anyway,photography is fun,thou still cant really figure out how to do this and that.

took some good shots too,got time should upload them =)

anyway,i found out that,154 dont go anywhere near ang mo kio -_-,personal experience,long story.lol

i think i wasted 4 hours of my life time today,thx to fns (mr chan). his "revision" is seriously crap.

and please la,wads "if u are meant to fail you will fail,initially i do pity them but as times past i got used to it,its the same for other people,other occupation"

hello? u think all like you meh,look at mr Lau,sucha good teacher,definitely better than you by a lot a lot!

last but not least!

if anyone who's reading do have the time,go and search this song.

love story by taylor swift.

sosososo nice =D